like any other life, i had been through a drastic change. i think.

got myself a job, into my seventh month currently. i am happy, in a different way. i still believe it's what keeps me sane till today.

maybe it's a relief everything has come to an end. we walked away; we stop the search.

and so, the year is coming to a closure in another three weeks. to be utterly honest, i am not a tad bit excited this year. what happen to major parties, countdown kisses and seasons of love? the butterflies are no longer fluttering in my stomach, perhaps age is really catching up. who's talking about fine wine?

sitting here in the dark like how i used to love, hearing my nails hitting the keyboard and listening to my all time favourite.

i am actually thinking of my job. offered a new post with a better salary package. in any right mind, i would take it but deep down, i feel a pinch of helplessness. i know it's a battle i have to fight to take it all down. i hope i wont get charge for saying, i am tired all over again. how disgusting it is that i smell fear. above all, i know i cant say no.

and every changes comes in a cycle.

till the next time ;)